Feb 01 2009
ABUSE
Today, I received an email from a young lady who said, I had inspired her to be a better mother. Say what? A while back I had written, “She didn’t want me.” A story of abuse at the hands of my mother. My story was on thoughts.com, and it had been awhile since I wrote about it, and to say the least, it was hard. I realized that the older I get, the harder it is to put behind me. I hate weddings, mother’s day (even though I am a mother), girl’s day out with mom, my mother’s birthday and the list goes on and on. No, it isn’t a paying website, just one that lets you get your feelings out, and that I did. The point to this story…, share, let people know what you have knowledge about. Someone out there can learn from you, hopefully for the good.
The young lady told me she is 22 and a first time mom, (first time is hard on any age). She thought a drink or two during the day, would take the edge off. Remember, to take YOUR edge off, puts it right back on someone else. My mother drank to feel no pain. I was the one who felt the pain of her actions. This woman said I helped her to realize, he is only 2 years old, and isn’t a pain in her butt, but a blessing. I guess I just wanted to share this because I was blessed by it, It takes a wise woman to know when she has done wrong and is headed in that direction, especially at 22. My story wasn’t just about my mother, it was about a life filled with crap and turmoil. I, at 47, am still trying to rise above it and am still learning. It’s never to old to learn. I wrote that story a few months ago, and assumed it was in the archives, somehow it made it’s way to someone who needed it. God taught me a valuable lesson. Just when you think he can’t use you and you have nothing more to offer, you get a promotion from him. My promotion? To know, that from my pain……someone else possibly stopped a cycle of abuse they can’t undo later on. Children don’t deserve abuse. They never asked to come into this world, we made those choices for them. Life is hard, some have more, some have less, children just know love, and love, is something everyone has to offer.
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